hmmm

I often don't blog because I don't have a specific topic, thought, trouble, etc. What I often find when I journal (which is NOT often, mind you), is that just the act of sitting down to type or write brings about many a thought. The writing becomes more authentic, more therapeutic, and often more "brutally honest", if you will. So, here I am, at the end of my lunch break, writing about...not sure yet.

What's on my mind...my son, my husband, weight watchers points, 9:00 pm tonight (when I get to sit and relax a bit...oh, how I look forward to 9:00 pm!!)

So, we had a bit of a scare this past week. We were pretty sure Will had an infant version of the measles. Yes, I said MEASLES! You know, like in 1890 when kids got measles all the time kind of measles. Didn't think it was possible but doc was pretty sure. Thankfully, the same symptoms that come with measles also come with your run-of-the-mill combination yeast-infection-ear-infection-teething-not-wanting- solid-foods-staying-up-until-9:00-because-he-doesn't-want-to-nap-until-4:00-pm kind of, er, "condition". Sigh. Daddy is staying home today. Doc said best thing we can do to get rid of the yeast infection is have a lot of nekked baby time. Yep. Bet Jason's glad he stayed home today :) NOT IT!! First person to call "NOT IT" doesn't have to change the poopy diaper...it's an awesome game that Jason and I play. Well, only awesome when I win :)

Nesting. Um, maybe it's sympathy nesting since my sister is preggers cause I am certainly NOT (not that I haven't thought about it a lot lately!). I totally want to move everything around in the house. Maybe the kitchen can be the dining room and the dining room can be the play/art room and the living room the bedroom and the bedroom...BREATHE! Oh, how fun change is. No, I really mean it. I love change...when I'm in charge and in complete control. Ahhh, and here it comes. The therapeutic and authentic and organic part of random blogging. What is it about control that...controls me? Why must I be in control of everything. Why not let God be in control. Oh, because I'm human and pretty sure I know best about everything. Maybe God has a plan in mind for me. Pretty sure that's what he meant when he says "For I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you and not harm you...plans to give you hope and a future"...Jeremiah 29:11 (from memory so not exactly). I need to post this verse. How much more hope do I need? Promise to give me hope, a future, to prosper me, to not harm me! What an awesome God. Now, if I could only let go and let God!